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Monday, January 14, 2019

Who am I


Who am I …?
The one who lost in the wind
The one who has no shadow
The one who walks alone

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I am who always miss the fragrance of purple lilac in spring
My eyes are always clinging to ponder the beauty of colors during the fall
Who loves the smells of the cutting green grass or the smells of the earth when it is pouring rain
I am who cries on my pillow because of missing you
Who don’t know how to show my love like I wanted to

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Who am I?
I am the one who always speak with my heart
Who hate the arrogance and cruelty
 I am the one who born with the pure wisdom
Being raised up in the realm of mystic


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 I believe your love is eternity
Binding in my spirit and body  
I truly believe you know me
While I am still searching and wondering
dearly

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Thursday, March 17, 2016

Lost



                                            
 Lost

                                        I  don't know where is the place to hide
                                         Everywhere seems too crowded and noisy
                                                 There is no spot empty
                                                 There is no seat available 
                                        So...I just walk and  walk without knowing 
                                                  when and where will I stop
   I don't know what I should say
  words are predictable, no meaning, no feeling
Every sound is the same; phony, dry and static
               No harmony, nothing!                         
    Just for the sake of formality?
I don't know to whom I can share my feeling
Everything is baseless
Friendship is wipe out
Feeling is gone by the bitterness

In digital world we live
I still don't know how to convert my feeling,
Is there any program or software handy?
I don't know how to tell the truth
Everywhere is too many rumors 
Fact became vogue with  sweet cover up 
even in the trial,  in the name of justice 
I know and they know about the truth
But it looks like that price is too high, too risky
Do you really care?

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I don’t know about anything now
Everything seems move to fast or am I too slow? ,
Does not fit in this kind of world?
Everybody lives there, but my soul is not
I don't know about anything anymore
I don't know at all




Saturday, January 10, 2015

A shadow



 A Shadow


There is a voice soft and tender to greet me “ Peace and happiness on you”

My mind wonders, why I can hear a voice without a body?

With a confusion finally I answer the greeting

And I saw a figure....neat, nice , sweet and friendly

His smile is so sweet, His has kind and warmth eyes with sparkling stars

And then disappear.....Who is he?



I remembered:

It was late at night, I walked down the street

The wind was dry and cold, it was hard to breathe under my scarf

My feet were tired and cramp because of the snow and slippery road

It was almost there..., just one more house!

And I see in front of me,  all  two meters  was covered  with glace, even my booth couldn’t  

I tried to move an inch, I lost my balance, so I decided not to move at all

I looked around nobody, not even a car passed by...

I reached my cell but I had  nobody to call


The wind blew, I knew my body will feel down

 so I leaned toward the fresh and soft  snowbank

two hands grasped my arms, and walked me through the glace

I already passed my  wooden steps, stood in front of my door

“ Thank you so much for your helps!”  I finally had a chance to see his face

Sweet, wide smile long  black curly  hair under his tuque

 “ No need to thanks, it’s my pleasure ...., I will wait here until you open your door”



I reached my keys in my pocket, it was not easy sometimes to open your door in this kind of weather

I finally heard a click, and my door had opened. I want to say good night,  and I saw no one...

The cold wind made me closed and locked the door instantly.

When I lay down to sleep  I deemed the light

I  saw him smiled and say good night.....and  vanish



He is indeed  the same individual ..., a person?

I have no idea at all.


Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Alone

I am alone.... but I am not hiding
I feel save  and sound
I feel  peace and tranquil
I  become one with me  and my self

I do believe that I know my self better than anyone else
I do feel  I know my self very well
I feel confused when  I hurt my feeling
I feel down and I am sad

Sometimes, I just want to be alone
To let it go what I feel
To heal the wound, to grieve
I need to spend some time with me, with my self

I just want to be alone
Just close my eyes..... take a deep  breath
Let it go.......only peace......, silence and serenity



Monday, October 10, 2011

Where are you?




Where are you? My eyes are longing for you
My mind is restless, my heart is aching, where are you?
Do you know, I have never been stop looking for you
I 've never been stop searching for you
Because I just realized that you have always been there
In every corner of my heart
In the other side of my mind

You, are remind me of my promise that was empty
You, are echoing in my heartbeat whenever I feel so guilty
You are hanging like a shadow every time I saw tears full of pain
Deep in my heart, I admitted “how cruel I am “
And “how nasty I can be”

Now, when my time is almost over, you are become a shadow on my sight
You‘d taken a part in my heart where no one else can reside
How come I feel that you  were there always, but in the same time you were gone,, disappeared…. Vanished!

I just want to tell you how so sorry I am, I know deep inside I feel that I don’t deserved your forgiveness. Not for this life….
But I do miss you in every single beat of my heart; I miss you more than anything in this life

If you are there somewhere…., If you are there anywhere…
Would you please give me a sign or a clue?
How do I ever find you, with no time on my hand, with no strength on my body?
But I do have a light in my heart that is burning, from the warmth of your love, from your kindness, from your devotion that I had shuttered.

Where are you?




Sunday, October 2, 2011

I am Pella Daetia ( Pella Daetia)


I am Pella Daetia


I am the protector of  seven towers
I am the key for seven oceans
I am the watcher of seven layers of the 
outer
From my kind, I am the sustenance of well being
who resides in the world of the bearer between  a fact and a surreal
 in the realm of other kind

We who live side by side with yours but never connected
We bind by the rules that is settled, we cannot cross over
I am the protector of our kind, who protected ours with my power

I can create layer of layer of rays that has magnitude of   magma of lava for thousands years

I can whisper the wind and blows the ocean that can swallow islands that no one will ever find

Only few of the other kind can reach us, they had a purity that shines  from the wisdom of the high

They cover themselves as a servant of the Mighty, the Creator of all Creator, The highest One
They bind of the rules that have been written.

They respect the rules more than anything above their life.  Some only interfere to protect theirs from the power of the darkness



I have been witnessing their power against the dark side, their enemy
Even the queen of the darkness has send thousands and thousands of her army but failed only

They have purity in their heart, they have wisdom and power that only stayed in their lineage
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I am Pella Daetia who holds the keys to the outer limits